I don’t get it. I can run every Monday through Friday with no problem. I can go to work on time. I can get all of my meals prepared and chores done.
So why is it so hard to find the motivation to do something creatively?
Sometimes I try to make it a habit, but then nothing comes out. Its like I have the paint brush in my hand or my fingers over the keyboard, but I find myself stumped somehow. What is the formula for doing this consistently?
Maybe I need to just go home, mediate, put my phone away, light some candles and listen to a recording of water running quietly.
I think I’m just so used to my life being chaos that I’ve forgotten how to be still and focus. I think I need to be more aware of the distractions I put in front of myself so I don’t have to do anything productive. My phone is almost never away from me and I think that’s becoming a big problem. There’s just so much on that one small device that could keep me busy for a long time. Surprisingly, my lap top isn’t as much as a distraction as my phone. However, I’ve used it to stall things I could be doing multiple times.
I’m hoping by just putting my phone away, I’ll have a much better chance of improving upon myself, but we’ll see.