I’m struggling to not be spiteful. Maybe I just need to take a step back. People wear me down, but I know I need to respect that we all work together to help each other.
I really really want to take care of myself the best I can, but it’s difficult. At the end of that day, we all have to relay on other people. For health care, for our money to be properly taken care of. It’s all so frustrating and it makes me feel like I owe people.
I know taking care of almost everything I need won’t be easy. But it will be easy in the sense that I could make sure I was taken care of. I wouldn’t have to worry to much about other people’s problems because I’d spend most of my time being able to focous on my own.
I’m trying to stay aware that other people do help to make our lives better, but that doesn’t mean I still can’t try to be as independent as possible.